holy shit i’m 19

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i have so many fucking trust issues and all i do these days is overreact and get jealous. fuck me.

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gone one kiss, one touch, too soon.

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i am so damn confused and conflicted.

where do i belong? 

definitely not here after being attacked and destroyed and broken down to almost nothing. 

your words will always stay with me. your hurtful actions will always be in the back of my mind. 

why put down roots anywhere really?

my life is so fucking scattered. 

and i really wish my family (excluding a few key players) would get along and i didn’t have to be in the middle of this and have altered loyalties and such. 

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Seriously though why the fuck did I move right before my senior year like nothing fucking good came of that awful timing

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a-river-and-its-thoughts:

I get to see my girl today :) this makes me very happy and very excited!!!!!

I literally have the best boyfriend.

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I don’t know how to be happy

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Some of you will never know how it feels like to be rejected by everyone in your life, even those who are supposed to be the closest to you, and not even be welcome in the place you call home. And thank god for that because it’s the fucking worst.

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I have no friends, or even family in San Diego at this point.

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I can’t live like this anymore.

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It is so fucked up that my stepfather expects my mother to have no relationship with me because I’m not a minor.

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a-river-and-its-thoughts:

"She Holds It Tight" by J.W. River

How sad is it that I’m at my happiest when I’m at work because I don’t have to deal with the shit at home/my family.
Who am I kidding, I haven’t been happy in a long time.
Update: I still hate my fucking life.

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This is completely fucked up and I can’t deal with any of this anymore.

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