i can’t stop thinking about how intimate our relationship was or how much you
pretended to care cared about me.
i miss your voice.
i barely remember it.>>
what ever happened to
"i never loved her"
or “forget about her, you are all that matters”
or “i made my choice, which i always knew, and that was you”
or “i know you hate her, i do too”
or “i’m not seeing her”
or “i will kill her if that makes you feel more secure”
or “if you really think i’d leave you, especially for her, that’s all a bunch of bullshit”
i still love you.
how sad is that.
part of me really does wants to be single and be able to go to parties and dance with guys and not belong to anybody or have attachment to anyone and not have anyone worry about me. living free and wild while I’m still young.
but another part of me wants to be in a relationship again, be dedicated to one guy, have someone to depend on and someone to look out for me, someone to talk to about everyone and everything, someone to lean on and cuddle with, someone to hold me and tell me that everything’s gonna be okay, someone to laugh with, someone who’s a constant in my life.
Corey, Say Anything…
Sure, I miss what we had and how perfect it was, but I’m not about to go plead to you to take me back.
I still feel as if we need to have an in person discussion because you did this all over a fucking text message.
Then again, seeing you again after a whole month apart might just upset me more and cause me to try and run back to you.
At this point, I just can’t fathom that I believed all your lies for so long. I was played good. I thought our relationship was worth more to you, considering all that we went through together, but I guess not, considering you ran back to your ex, who was always a problem, almost immediately.
I hope you know that the reasons that you left me for will continue to haunt you in your current relationship.
Especially the “I’m too weak for long distance” reason.
hahaha fuck this place.
i forgot how miserable this household was.
first night home and its shitty leftovers that i have to scramble to make myself.
no concern whatsoever for anyone or anything.
im being blamed for shit and ive only been here a few hours.
everyone is just crying/yelling/complaining, im so glad i got out of this.
and it doesnt help that youre rubbing my breakup in my face.
im sorta glad that i have literally nothing tying me down to this city anymore.
im so glad i have a life of my own at my school.
ive been happy up there, ive been fine, thanks to the people up there, but especially you.>>
i don’t have feelings, cuz feelings are gay.>>
You dumped me (over a text message, for gods sake) because you couldn’t handle our long distance relationship, and now you’re pursuing a long distance relationship with your ex, who is on the other side of the fucking country, whereas I’m just a little bit up north (and come home frequently).
You did the ONE THING you promised me you would never, ever do.
Was our entire relationship a lie? A joke?
Why was I so stupid? So gullible?
I’m sure both of you are just trying to fucking hurt me, which I don’t deserve, especially in a time like this.
How fucking dare you.
relatively speaking, i’ve been okay the past couple of days.
i guess it’s good that i have this opportunity to explore my options and be free.
maybe not now, but maybe some day.>>
Life’s purpose is not happiness but survival and reproduction.>>
long distance my ass.>>
fuck, i miss you.
i hope that there’s still a chance, even though we didn’t sort anything out this weekend.
because at the end of the day, it’s still you.>>
- I know you're just doing this to hurt me.
you can’t make it work with someone who is the exact clone of you.
yeah, me and you were different, but we balanced each other out perfectly.
i hope you realize that soon.>>