a-river-and-its-thoughts:

"She Holds It Tight" by J.W. River

How sad is it that I’m at my happiest when I’m at work because I don’t have to deal with the shit at home/my family.
Who am I kidding, I haven’t been happy in a long time.
Update: I still hate my fucking life.

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This is completely fucked up and I can’t deal with any of this anymore.

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I fucking hate my life :)))))

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I don’t know why I was in such a rush to get home because I fucking hate it here too.
I’m so damn tired of the loneliness and the misery.

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I am still so fucking fat goddammit I hate my fucking body. Nothing has changed.

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You asked me: if my mother disapproved of my boyfriend,would I still date him?
I said yes, and you chuckled, trying to prove that I can dislike you and my mother and it won’t do anything about you guys being together.
The thing is, I’m not in an emotionally and physically abusing relationship full of anger issues, and you guys are.
You are so stupid.
You are so full of shit.
I cannot bear to be in the same room as you anymore.
I cannot live here any longer.
I can’t just let what happened go. It’s been building up for a long time.
I’m not going back to pretending that everything is okay.

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And now my piece of shit stepdad is trying to get involved. Fuck off I hate you too. This has nothing to do with you. And don’t act like you’re any better.
You can’t blame me for wanting to get out of this either.

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We’ve been arguing over Facebook (you started it even though you should have been the bigger man) and tonight when you uninvited me to your wedding was the last straw.
I finally broke down and called you because this has gotten out of hand. How dare you try and cut me out of your life. Sorry I’m not as good as your new kids or new family. Sorry I’ll never be what they are to you.
Also don’t tell me that I don’t know how to argue when you used the same techniques I did.
Don’t tell me that I know less than I think I do because you have no idea what has happened to me recently, the past year especially. You have no clue how I’ve been independent or what I’ve done, seen, learned.
Stop using what I said to form this opinion of me. You still misunderstand everything and it’s astonishing.
Nothing was accomplished in that 40 minutes but I think I’m still going.
I’m not gonna let you cut me out of your life. I’m not gonna let you cut your real family out of your wedding. I need to go and make appearances and see my relatives and keep my sister company.
After that, I’m not so sure.

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a-river-and-its-thoughts:

"Odds Became Even"

I had a pretty shitty morning and I hate the fact that I’m at home this summer bUT I GET TO SEE THE BEST BOY IN LESS THAN 5 HOURS

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a-river-and-its-thoughts:

This is the work…. Of a white girl who was wasted…

thats-slightly-raven:

People who have a superiority complex based on their enjoyment of vintage music or books are some of the most annoying people in the world and if I ever hear you ridiculing someone just because they may not enjoy listening to the beatles whilst reading to kill a mockingbird and sipping a cup of hibiscus green tea i will literally come to your house and staple your nipples to your elbows 

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Literally everything that happens in this house is so goddamn ridiculous.
Y’all need medication.
My sister asked a question about dinner and now dinner’s in the trash and I’m told I’m on my own?
God what happened to you? What did he do to you?
Moving here literally ruined you.
Can I go back to school yet? I can’t deal with this bullshit anymore.
This shouldn’t be my problem.
This is far from normal.
No one else has to deal with this hostile, awkward living environment.

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